Hi, my name is Crazy Lady. My mind gets the best of me a I allow my physical actions reflect it. When I go nuts, I think my life is worthless. I want to either harm myself or harm others. but neither of those options atre realistic. People in my life need my insanity to comfort them, to love them and.some depend on me. It does make me feel special that no mater how NUTS I get, there are people in my life that would miss me. maybe I want to be missed, but how realistic wpuld that really be? I have to remember to love myself. My self worth is worthy. And if I go to early then what would the people in my life really feel about me? Would their last feeling of me be, shameful, would they call me selfish, coward? my exit a tragedy or disappointment? How about if I just keep on, whether life is good or bad. Maybe I will just stick around to terrorize my husband, my family and my friends. But when I say terrorize I mean it in a loving, funny me kind of way. I might not always like the cards I am dealt, but damnit I am going to stay at the table till I get a ful house or the 4 Aces to win. My only flaw is that everytime I go nuts I take it out on those I love. Or I call "her" to start a fight. She has that "you know what you should do" mentality and that doesnt drive me nuts it pisses me off. She lives a life with hate and negativity towards the man that gave her three girls. She always tells me God will see me through this thats fine. But I dont need spirtual advice I need my mom. If I wanted spirtual advice I would go speak to a priest. But in the end, I might be in the wrong for being hateful towards her. So until I apologize I guess we wont be talking. Cant let that old bat die on me,i said some awful shit. But life goes on
Hello, my name is Crazy Lady and I am going to.be around until my hair turns grey, till my hands tell a story, and my great grandkids come to visit me and terrorize my crazy ol ass for all the stuff I have done in my life.
